too many thoughts in my tiny brain...

I wish to apologize in advance for the random, unconnected, thoughts that are about to ensue on your screen. My brain is moving WAY to fast lately, and it is becoming increasingly difficult for me to keep up. Being this thoughtful is exhausting work!

More and more I am realizing how complicated and intertwined my life path is. Everyone has a path that they are following, and lately I find myself crossing paths with many influential people in ministry that are not only guiding me, but also challenging me to think differently about youth ministry then I ever have before. When I realized my calling to youth ministry, I had one picture of what that would look like in my head. As the days, weeks, months roll by; I am seeing a different picture come into focus before me. This picture is not making any sense, but I am trusting God that it will in time.

While these things are going on in my brain and stirring my heart, I also have to focus on finishing a Bachelor’s Degree; a process I wish would just hurry up and be done with already. I desperately long for the day when I don’t have to worry about working a job, finishing homework, AND doing ministry. I really want to at least cut out one of these tasks. Doing all three is causing me to not put everything I have into ministry. It is extremely hard to have realized your calling and not be able to do a thing about it in the moment.

I am wearing thin…I need a vacation from my job and from school so that I can focus on ministry and what I’m going to do when I have my own youth group…even if only for a brief moment…